Mother's Prayer - Cook
http://soundcloud.com/user1833489/mothers-prayer The recording
This is a work-in-progress. I started the rough outline/idea last November. My son is in his early 20s. He is an alcoholic and struggles with it and other substances. He had moved cross country last summer. He gave up one night in November, got drunk and went driving around back roads at two in the morning with his eyes closed, hoping to die. He didn't (thank God!). The rough outlines were started that night, as I wrestled with knowing I couldn't go to him - that he has to find his answers/rescue elsewhere, and wrestled with the fact that it is a family disease - I have been part of an anonymous program for nearly two decades.
How I find it fits Worship Values? I feel I heard, over and over, we can't give what we don't have. I have been really struck by the need to have a deeper prayer life - not just read His Word, journal some and go to work - or spend a 'few minutes' with Him - but to really spend time with Him. To lay it all at His feet and that it is okay, as is done so often in the Psalms, to start with my burdens and end with my praise. I have also really heard about quiet time with Him, have started spending TIME with Him - not with music on or reading anything, just quiet time; so I also am working on building a 'quiet time' into this song - perhaps it would be just guitar, perhaps a reading, perhaps a prayer - who knows? What I DO know is that the verses are close, there are still a few words I am not sold on yet - the bridge will most likely have a real rework, some different chords, maybe even lifting up to a different key for the third verse. The bridge is what will most likely be very different when I am done. However, I am still VERY inexperienced as a writer and still pretty slow and methodical, so I have to let the song grow, at a slower pace and be okay with it.
The recording - I am JUST learning garage band. You will hear the mistakes (including the metronome!); it was my E-Keys, garage band and me (not even a mic) - AND my two young grand-daughters, who you will hear. I was watching them for a few days as I did this and they like to hear me sing - and for 2 and 4 they did very well with being quiet! I actually feel that, live, it will start out slower, more reflective and prayerful - and move back down to that - Maggie Cook